February 10, 2009

This is IT

Yesterday I went to the gym for the first time in over a year. I did the treadmill, walked a mile (about 20 min plus warmup/warmdown). It felt so good. I mean, not physically. Physically it made my legs ache and my breath come hard and fast.

I've only been on Weight Watchers for a little under two weeks, but the funny thing is that I already feel better about myself. I'm eating healthier, and it's affecting the way I feel. I am proud of myself, I feel better about the way I'm taking care of myself.

I went to the gym today and realized how good it will feel to be there three times a week. I looked at the huge list of drop in classes that they have, and I got excited about trying some of them out.

I really feel like this is GOING to be my year. I'm starting to have faith again. I'm starting to feel like I really CAN do this, that there is hope. That maybe I'm not doomed after all. And it feels good.