Week 1: AGAIN.

Current Weight:  232.4
+/-  this week:  +22 since last weight (Oct 2012)
+/- this round:   N/A
+/- total:    -34.6
Short Term Goal:  222.4

Avg weekly loss needed to reach 189 lbs by age 33 (35 weeks): 1.14 lbs/wk

Well.  Here we are.  Again. This road sucks. Someone posted this in my healthy moms group on Facebook today, and it really hits home.

First off, I obviously haven’t been around here as much lately. I have these other huge projects going on in my life that are taking up whatever spare time I have, and this place has taken the back burner, and probably will continue to for a while. For now you can find me at Born in Bellingham, Your Movie Madness, and sometimes at Ready, Set, Birth. And of course you can always connect with me on Facebook.  I’m trying to spend a little less time online too focusing on my family and finding a balance is just not easy. I may write from time to time, but for now the one thing I will really be focusing on posting here is weekly weight updates.

I saw a new doctor on Monday, a naturopath my mom has been seeing for a long time, and talked to him about everything – my thyroid, my hormones, my weight struggles. He’s really funny and I believe he’ll be able to help me get everything balanced out. It was refreshing to go to a doctor who basically said, ‘yeah, your body sucks. It sucks that you got this body with these problems and that you can’t just lose weight, and keep it off with a normal diet, that it comes back so easily and is hard to lose.’ He understands, and he sympathized with me, and I know he’ll be supportive and non-judgmental, which is what I need. It’s hard to go to a doctor after having gained 20 pounds in three months and not feel like kind of a failure, but he didn't make me feel like that at all. This morning I went and got 9 vials of blood drawn, and I’m going back next week because he’s basically testing everything so we can figure out my medications so that at least that won’t be in the way of my efforts.

So… yeah. In October, I was down to 210 lbs. Less than I’ve weighed in probably 8 years. I went off the plan. I have not been exercising. I’m working full time now, and I haven’t figured out a good way to get exercise in when I get up, get everyone ready, work all day and don’t get home until 6 or 6:30, and then am exhausted. It sucks because last year at this time I was spending 1-2 hours every day wandering, walking, or doing some kind of activity. It turns out that working also hasn’t been as good for my weight loss as I’d hoped in other ways too. I had hoped that being away from the kitchen would help, but there are temptations here – ordering food for lunch, candy and treats etc., McDonalds right there on the way to work every day. Today is my second day of counting points again. I did really well yesterday, and after dinner I was right at points. Then I ate 6 girl scout cookies…. That’s TWELVE points. UGH. I know I have my weekly points, and I’m trying to give myself a break since I’m just starting again, but it’s hard not to be annoyed.

I stopped at WW today and got weighed, which I’ll try to do every week. I’ll probably do it on Tuesdays since that is a morning where I won’t have Danny with me to drop off at day care and it’s much easier to do it on my own. I can stop there pretty easily after dropping Justin off at work, or on my way if I don’t drop Justin off.

I’ve decided that my goal for this year is to get to 189 by my birthday. 189 will mark no longer being considered ‘obsese’. I know that BMI is a crock of shit basically (honestly, the low end of my range is 120. Gross.), but I’m just using it as a marker anyhow because my goals have to come from somewhere. I’m still listing my long term goal here as 160, but I’m not sure I’ll stick with that. I was 180 for many years and was pretty happy at that weight, so we’ll just see how things are going if I manage to get to 189, and I’ll decide new goals from there. I really want to get under 200, and if I can get down to 180 or lower I think I’ll feel a lot healthier and able to do more.

I have short term goals listed at the bottom here, and my first one is 222.4 – lose 10 pounds. I know I can do this. I KNOW. I just have to find inspiration somewhere. Again.

Starting Weight 1 (Feb 2009):  267 lbs
Starting Weight 2 (Dec 2011):  249.8 lbs
Starting Weight 3 (Feb 2013):  232.4 lbs
Starting BMI:  41.8

Weight Lost:  34.6 lbs
Goal Weight: 160 lbs
Goal BMI:  25.1

Old Goal 1: 237.8 (5%) - Met 1/24/12
Old Goal 2: 225.8 (10%) - Met 4/10/12
Old Goal 3:  217 (50 pounds down) - Met 8/7/12
Old Goal 4: 213.5 (50% of final goal) - Met 9/25/12


Short Term Goal 1:  222.4 (10 pounds down this round)
Short Term Goal 2: 217 (50 pounds down [again...])
Short Term Goal 4:  207 (60 pounds down)

Short Term Goal 5: 199.9 (under 200 for the first time in 7+ years)
Short Term Goal 6: 192 (75 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 7: 189 (25% &  no longer "obese")

Long Term Goal: 160 lbs
Total to Lose:  107 lbs
To Go: 72.4 lbs