March 27, 2013

Week "3": BLURGHARGHTHISAGAINSIGH....

Current Weight:  236. Ish.  Unofficial. OBVIOUSLY.
+/-  this week:  +4.8
+/- this round:   +3.6
+/- total:    -31
Short Term Goal:  222.4

Avg weekly loss needed to reach 189 lbs by age 33 (34 weeks): 1.4 lbs/wk

Remember a few weeks ago when I was on the wagon and YAY I lost a pound and then.... BLURGH.  My motivation is in the toilet.  I had a bad week and then I just kind of fell off the wagon and decided to eat whatever I want.  Then, a week ago, I got SICK.  I have been having dizzy spells and headaches and all kinds of other weird symptoms.  Its improving as of yesterday, but very slowly.

I also had a semi-discouraging doctor appointment and though my thyroid looks okay, my hormone levels (estrodiol and progesterone) are all freaky and I have now been referred to an allergist and back to my endocrinologist.  So, we'll see what happens there.  It was kind of a big debacle for me.  I went to a naturopath that my Mom goes to because I know he’s helped her and he did the full blood panel.  Then told me there were like 10 things that were off, including my hormones, my ferritin, my thyroid, my immunoglobulins, my something binding sex hormone, and my histamine reactions.  He wanted me to give up gluten and basically all sugar/processed food, gave me 2 supplements, and prescribed a hormone protocol that costs $90 a month and my insurance won’t cover.  I’ll be honest, I freaked the freak out after that appointment.  I was beyond overwhelmed and I went home and cried, disappointed that my body can’t just be NORMAL.  Honestly, it is hard enough for me to control the amount of food I put into my body, and I know that I have psychological issues with food, but the idea of changing my diet that completely just knocked me off my feet because it seemed like Mt. Everest.  So after calming down, I decided to take my bloodwork to a general practice dr. and see what he said.  Well, he basically didn’t mention several of the things the naturopath HAD mentioned, and referred me elsewhere to talk about my hormones.  Which is FINE, and I’d like to talk to the endocrinologist about my Metformin anyhow and make sure I’m on the right dosage etc.  And maybe she’ll be more knowledgable.  I don’t know, I wasn’t fully satisfied with EITHER appointment.  I wish I could find someone who was in between.  So now I am looking forward to at least 2 more doctor appointments.  It’s just exhausting.  But hopefully I’ll get everything figured out/straightened out.  It does make it harder to stick to the Weight Watchers plan when in my head I think I have the idea that my body is broken so what’s the use.

I just need to get back on the wagon, but it's hard when I'm super exhausted all the time.  I'm going to try though.  I haven't been getting anything done at all, which is frustrating.  I'm hoping soon to write a post about all the things that have happened so far in 2013... maybe I'll just do a Q1 wrapup.  There are these little/weird things I want to have recorded somewhere and not forget about, so we'll see.  And now I am going to go try to eat something not completely unhealthy for lunch.  And stop snacking on these delicious jellybeans at my desk.

Starting Weight 1 (Feb 2009):  267 lbs
Starting Weight 2 (Dec 2011):  249.8 lbs
Starting Weight 3 (Feb 2013):  232.4 lbs
Starting BMI:  41.8

Weight Lost:  35.8 lbs
Goal Weight: 160 lbs
Goal BMI:  25.1

Old Goal 1: 237.8 (5%) - Met 1/24/12
Old Goal 2: 225.8 (10%) - Met 4/10/12
Old Goal 3:  217 (50 pounds down) - Met 8/7/12
Old Goal 4: 213.5 (50% of final goal) - Met 9/25/12


Short Term Goal 1:  222.4 (10 pounds down this round)
Short Term Goal 2: 217 (50 pounds down [again...])
Short Term Goal 3:  207 (60 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 4: 199.9 (under 200 for the first time in 7+ years)
Short Term Goal 5: 192 (75 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 6: 189 (25% &  no longer "obese")

Long Term Goal: 160 lbs
Total to Lose:  107 lbs
To Go: 71.2 lbs

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