Let's get one thing straight here. HATE is a very strong word, and I can say with conviction there is nothing I hate about myself. I save my hatred for things like George W. Bush's presidency, truck nuts, and black licorice. So, let's tone it down a little.
Everyone has things they don't like about themselves. If we're lucky, we find ways to change and grow and make ourselves a little bit happier. I don't like that I give in to my son too much. I don't like that I sometimes let snide remarks pass my lips instead of just letting them slide. I wish I was more motivated to keep my house cleaner without the push of having people come over. I'd like to be more responsible with money and stick to a budget better.
But the thing I like least about myself? It's inside me, and it's something only I can change. If you've been around a while, you know that I started Weight Watchers in February 2009. I lost 30 pounds before I got pregnant, and ended up almost 50 pounds lighter. I started Weight Watchers again 8 weeks ago, and I'm STUCK. I haven't been gaining weight, but I haven't been losing either.
I'm so frustrated, because I know it's all my own fault. I haven't been sticking to my points as well as I should have. Even on the days I do, I haven't been exercising. I don't like it that I KNOW I can do this, but something is blocking me. Something inside me is not motivating me to really GET on this and STICK to it. I need to start working out again and cooking meals, sticking to our meal calendar and keeping healthy snacks in the house. I'm the only one who can do this, I'm the only one who can make it work. And I'm not trying hard enough. Right now, that's what I don't like.
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