"I'm dying" her words
jump out of the screen, attack
my senses, I freeze
Six months and change since
I saw her last, and so much
has happened since then
I want her to fight,
to want to fight but words don't
seem to be enough
She sees no light, no
happiness, no reason to
prolong suffering
Pain radiates from
her, the physical pales next
to profound heartache
When 'forever' turns
to, 'not now, it's not right' and
your life's love is lost
When someone else makes
the choice for you, how do you
come out of that fog?
Last October, pills
and wine, saved only by dumb
luck and circumstance
Would I have known she
was gone? I wonder as she
speaks "I should have died"
My words fail me now
but she needs to understand
she is of value
How much she has to
give, how much she has given
or where would I be?
She has been sick for
a long time, now finally
a diagnosis
Leaves her void of hope
she doesn't want to try, there
is no cure, but hope
A way to live for
years, even decades without
another attack
In my head, I beg
her to accept the treatment
to fight, to thrive, live
I worry because
I love her fiercly, I see
the good inside her
Her love for people,
the way she commits full force
her heart so loyal
I wish she could see
the people she's lifted, how
much we care for her
I wish she could feel
our love as a physical
presence, she needs it
She is strong. Full of
fire, love and compassion
but her spirit wanes
Lord, help me. I don't
know where to turn, and I need
you beside me now
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