Week "3": BLURGHARGHTHISAGAINSIGH....

Current Weight:  236. Ish.  Unofficial. OBVIOUSLY.
+/-  this week:  +4.8
+/- this round:   +3.6
+/- total:    -31
Short Term Goal:  222.4

Avg weekly loss needed to reach 189 lbs by age 33 (34 weeks): 1.4 lbs/wk

Remember a few weeks ago when I was on the wagon and YAY I lost a pound and then.... BLURGH.  My motivation is in the toilet.  I had a bad week and then I just kind of fell off the wagon and decided to eat whatever I want.  Then, a week ago, I got SICK.  I have been having dizzy spells and headaches and all kinds of other weird symptoms.  Its improving as of yesterday, but very slowly.

I also had a semi-discouraging doctor appointment and though my thyroid looks okay, my hormone levels (estrodiol and progesterone) are all freaky and I have now been referred to an allergist and back to my endocrinologist.  So, we'll see what happens there.  It was kind of a big debacle for me.  I went to a naturopath that my Mom goes to because I know he’s helped her and he did the full blood panel.  Then told me there were like 10 things that were off, including my hormones, my ferritin, my thyroid, my immunoglobulins, my something binding sex hormone, and my histamine reactions.  He wanted me to give up gluten and basically all sugar/processed food, gave me 2 supplements, and prescribed a hormone protocol that costs $90 a month and my insurance won’t cover.  I’ll be honest, I freaked the freak out after that appointment.  I was beyond overwhelmed and I went home and cried, disappointed that my body can’t just be NORMAL.  Honestly, it is hard enough for me to control the amount of food I put into my body, and I know that I have psychological issues with food, but the idea of changing my diet that completely just knocked me off my feet because it seemed like Mt. Everest.  So after calming down, I decided to take my bloodwork to a general practice dr. and see what he said.  Well, he basically didn’t mention several of the things the naturopath HAD mentioned, and referred me elsewhere to talk about my hormones.  Which is FINE, and I’d like to talk to the endocrinologist about my Metformin anyhow and make sure I’m on the right dosage etc.  And maybe she’ll be more knowledgable.  I don’t know, I wasn’t fully satisfied with EITHER appointment.  I wish I could find someone who was in between.  So now I am looking forward to at least 2 more doctor appointments.  It’s just exhausting.  But hopefully I’ll get everything figured out/straightened out.  It does make it harder to stick to the Weight Watchers plan when in my head I think I have the idea that my body is broken so what’s the use.

I just need to get back on the wagon, but it's hard when I'm super exhausted all the time.  I'm going to try though.  I haven't been getting anything done at all, which is frustrating.  I'm hoping soon to write a post about all the things that have happened so far in 2013... maybe I'll just do a Q1 wrapup.  There are these little/weird things I want to have recorded somewhere and not forget about, so we'll see.  And now I am going to go try to eat something not completely unhealthy for lunch.  And stop snacking on these delicious jellybeans at my desk.

Starting Weight 1 (Feb 2009):  267 lbs
Starting Weight 2 (Dec 2011):  249.8 lbs
Starting Weight 3 (Feb 2013):  232.4 lbs
Starting BMI:  41.8

Weight Lost:  35.8 lbs
Goal Weight: 160 lbs
Goal BMI:  25.1

Old Goal 1: 237.8 (5%) - Met 1/24/12
Old Goal 2: 225.8 (10%) - Met 4/10/12
Old Goal 3:  217 (50 pounds down) - Met 8/7/12
Old Goal 4: 213.5 (50% of final goal) - Met 9/25/12


Short Term Goal 1:  222.4 (10 pounds down this round)
Short Term Goal 2: 217 (50 pounds down [again...])
Short Term Goal 3:  207 (60 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 4: 199.9 (under 200 for the first time in 7+ years)
Short Term Goal 5: 192 (75 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 6: 189 (25% &  no longer "obese")

Long Term Goal: 160 lbs
Total to Lose:  107 lbs
To Go: 71.2 lbs

My Latest at Your Movie Madness

It's that time again - I have been hard at work (man, what could be better 'work' than watching movies, then telling everyone what I think of them?) and have a few more reviews to share!  My original plan was to link up every week, but I'm a bit behind!  Here are my latest opinions over at Your Movie Madness!

Phantom - 4/10
Phantom seemed to show up in theaters just as it’s title suggests – slipping into our local cineplex without notice. I saw it in the listings and after watching the preview thought it looked interesting and exciting. I enjoy military movies and disaster movies, so it seemed right up my alley.  keep reading

Warm Bodies - 9/10
I’m not too proud to admit that I got swept up in the Zombie craze that’s been going on the last few years. I love exploring the mythologies and worlds created through each author or director’s vision. I live for the stories and worlds that are unique, but even I didn’t expect to hear the words zombie and love story in the same sentence. Beyond hearing them, I never would have expected that they would not only work, but sweep me away.  keep reading

Hansel & Gretel: Witch Hunters - 7/10
During the previews for Hansel & Gretel: Witch Hunters I suddenly realized I had not seen a single preview for the movie I was about to see. I was surprised, since this one is right up my alley. If it’s got vampires, werewolves, fairies, or witches, chances are I’ll be there. I’m a huge supernatural fan, and intrigued by the re-imagining of classic fairy tales, especially when they swing more towards their darker origins.  keep reading

Zero Dark Thirty - 8/10
From the moment I heard about Zero Dark Thirty, I knew I wanted to see it. Once I heard Kathryn Bigelow was on board, I was even more interested. This is Bigelow’s first feature film since 2009’s The Hurt Locker, which made her the first female Best Director winner, also taking home Academy Awards for Best Picture and Best Original Screenplay among others. Zero Dark Thirty is a dramatized account of the 10 year manhunt for terrorist leader Osama Bin Laden. The story centers around Maya (Jessica Chastain – The Debt, The Help), a CIA officer who has spent her entire career with the CIA focused on finding a man known as Abu Ahmed, who works as a personal courier for Bin Laden. Maya works closely with another CIA officer, Dan (Jason Clarke – Public Enemies, Lawless), and various other operatives in the middle east and later back in Washington D.C. As the years go by, we follow Maya as she becomes more deeply invested in and affected by her hunt for America’s most wanted criminal. keep reading

The Impossible - 8/10
Every so often in our lives, events occur that are incomprehensible. It is almost impossible to comprehend the horror of the people caught in the towers on September 11, genocide in Rwanda, or on the beach when the tsunami struck Thailand in 2004. In The Impossible, director J. A. Bayona (The Orphanage) dares us to try. keep reading

Week 2: Short & Sweet

Current Weight:  231.2
+/-  this week:  -1.2
+/- this round:   -1.2
+/- total:    -35.8
Short Term Goal:  222.4

Avg weekly loss needed to reach 189 lbs by age 33 (34 weeks): 1.2 lbs/wk

Well.  That happened.  So that's good.  Especially since I had a bit of a... snafu... on Sunday that involved me eating ALL THE FOOD.  At least that's what it felt like.  I ended the week 20 points over my weekly goal, which isn't as bad as it could be.

This week's a challenge.  Date night last night (which included a margarita the size of a small infant), a birthday at work today with pizza & ice cream, and the women's retreat and birthday celebrations at book club on Sunday.  We'll see.  I am doing a lot better and it feels good to be back on plan again.

That's all for now!

Starting Weight 1 (Feb 2009):  267 lbs
Starting Weight 2 (Dec 2011):  249.8 lbs
Starting Weight 3 (Feb 2013):  232.4 lbs
Starting BMI:  41.8

Weight Lost:  35.8 lbs
Goal Weight: 160 lbs
Goal BMI:  25.1

Old Goal 1: 237.8 (5%) - Met 1/24/12
Old Goal 2: 225.8 (10%) - Met 4/10/12
Old Goal 3:  217 (50 pounds down) - Met 8/7/12
Old Goal 4: 213.5 (50% of final goal) - Met 9/25/12


Short Term Goal 1:  222.4 (10 pounds down this round)
Short Term Goal 2: 217 (50 pounds down [again...])
Short Term Goal 3:  207 (60 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 4: 199.9 (under 200 for the first time in 7+ years)
Short Term Goal 5: 192 (75 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 6: 189 (25% &  no longer "obese")

Long Term Goal: 160 lbs
Total to Lose:  107 lbs
To Go: 71.2 lbs